I just submitted deferment form for school and also quit my job a few days ago! I'm planning to rest for a few months before finding a new job or probably go back to school?
Reasons being I'm too tired. It has been months since she left me and I've returned back to work straight after I'm done settling all the paper work. It's quite tiring you know? Everything crush upon me within a night. From a little girl that know nuts about everything of house affairs till now, a lady who handles everything by herself. I've to get at least 8 years older over a night.
I'm tired of keeping everything to myself and sick of everyone who said that they will always be there for me. Are you dead serious? Face the reality, no one can be there for you always.
"I'm fine" or "don't worry I'm coping well" are all fucking lies I've been saying to make myself look stronger.
But even a strongest wall might collapse you know?
Actually..Im fucking not fine and I'm not coping well coz it's so stressful and life seriously fuck me up too badly this time round.
I miss my life at prcs, at underground, at 230, at 85 and anywhere that I could find peace and joy.
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